Hindsight is 20/20

Hehehe....  If Only I learned how to do this sooner...

Too soon / Too Late

I sometimes feel really creative, other times I feel incredibly inadequate.

I know what quality IS, but cannot achieve it myself.
So, then, should I take risks and make the best of new opportunities, or should I play it safe and possibly miss out on an abundant career?

I know how good my show is, I know what I can comfortably charge, but I still feel guilty about it. I need the money so bad I can't really lower my rate, but I love performing so much and I know how hard my show is to do, and I get pissed off at myself for getting the kind of money that I do.

Tonight I had a show at a local theatre. Not a great turn-out, but my act went over very well.

I feel like I'm getting good too soon, but at the same time progressing in my career far too late...

Ah, fuck it. I'm actually just writing right now because I hate my life and wanted to kill some time.
My brain is completely devoid of intelligent thought, and I can't seem to find anything pleasing beyond the sound of the fizzles inside my Dr. Pepper can.

.: sigh :.

Well, in theory....

Theoretically,
I sometimes wish it were legal to cause extreme bodily harm.
Oh, no worries, I don't really want to harm anyone, but sometimes in fits of rage I really wish I could roundhouse kick a certain ex of mine through a plate glass window off a high-digit floor of an office building.
It's not legal, moral, or remotely possible, so I'll have to settle for screaming white noise through the phone system and throwing a tennis ball at my Chia™ Pet.

....
Of course, only theoretically.