I have spent more time in the hospital lately than I have in my entire life thusfar combined.
I've missed weeks of work, and dealt with a lot of unpleasant shit.
But, I've also accomplished more than I have in almost a year now.
Why? Because I wasn't slaving away at a 9-5 for at least a week straight.
I got stuff done.
I built props.
I played games.
I lived.
And it's here I draw a conclusion -- there is no substitute for living a dream.
The sooner I can stop living in a fantasy world (the shop), the better.
Wish
I wish for a day where there is much less drama.
I'm aware that LIFE is DRAMA, and so there will always be small amounts of it...
but mostly, I just wish for a serious decrease in the amount I'm subjected to.
This being my only place to really vent about it without consequence, I try to keep my venting to a minimum.
I hate people who are two-faced.
I hate people who are manipulative of others for their own gain, to the detriment of others.
I hate liars.
I hate hypocrites.
I despise drama and those who perpetuate it.
I hate people who get the world handed to them from day one and never have to work for anything they have -- knowing they take pride in that and laugh at people like me who work their asses off for decent shelter and a few nice things.
I hate tiny jewish girls named Malka.
And, the icing on the cake, I hate people who cant EVER be original with ANYTHING they do.
O.O
OMFG.
I'm filled with hate right now.
And hot pockets.
Hateful hotpockets.
Those damn microwavable sin cells.
I'm aware that LIFE is DRAMA, and so there will always be small amounts of it...
but mostly, I just wish for a serious decrease in the amount I'm subjected to.
This being my only place to really vent about it without consequence, I try to keep my venting to a minimum.
I hate people who are two-faced.
I hate people who are manipulative of others for their own gain, to the detriment of others.
I hate liars.
I hate hypocrites.
I despise drama and those who perpetuate it.
I hate people who get the world handed to them from day one and never have to work for anything they have -- knowing they take pride in that and laugh at people like me who work their asses off for decent shelter and a few nice things.
I hate tiny jewish girls named Malka.
And, the icing on the cake, I hate people who cant EVER be original with ANYTHING they do.
O.O
OMFG.
I'm filled with hate right now.
And hot pockets.
Hateful hotpockets.
Those damn microwavable sin cells.
Crumbling
I'm really not sick that often.
I went to the hospital last week for medication for an infection.
The prescriptions were too costly, so I put them off, and find myself in a painful predicament.
I went back to the hospital as a last resort chance to find some kind of relief for this pain, only to be told there was nothing more they could do until the infection cleared.
Duh.
The pharmacy close right before I got there.
I spent 5 minutes crying when I saw my gas gauge light turn on.
I had to take out my contacts because my eyes hurt.
I'm coughing up bits of blood.
I can't swallow my own spit, much less anything else.
I hurt, I'm coughing, and drowning in problems.
I hear help is coming, but no idea how soon -- if at all.
The belts on my car need to be replaced, because 2 of them are cracked and not going to make it much farther. The engine needs a tune-up. It needs the fluids flushed and replaced. I've got nearly bald tires and a hole in my exhaust pipe. I put about 6k miles on my car each month. I'm 4k miles overdue for an oil change, but can't do ANY of that because of rent, cell phone, internet, electricity, food, and gas itself.
I spend all my freetime working just to have the money for the few bills I can pay...
...I really. Fucking. Hate. My. Life.
I went to the hospital last week for medication for an infection.
The prescriptions were too costly, so I put them off, and find myself in a painful predicament.
I went back to the hospital as a last resort chance to find some kind of relief for this pain, only to be told there was nothing more they could do until the infection cleared.
Duh.
The pharmacy close right before I got there.
I spent 5 minutes crying when I saw my gas gauge light turn on.
I had to take out my contacts because my eyes hurt.
I'm coughing up bits of blood.
I can't swallow my own spit, much less anything else.
I hurt, I'm coughing, and drowning in problems.
I hear help is coming, but no idea how soon -- if at all.
The belts on my car need to be replaced, because 2 of them are cracked and not going to make it much farther. The engine needs a tune-up. It needs the fluids flushed and replaced. I've got nearly bald tires and a hole in my exhaust pipe. I put about 6k miles on my car each month. I'm 4k miles overdue for an oil change, but can't do ANY of that because of rent, cell phone, internet, electricity, food, and gas itself.
I spend all my freetime working just to have the money for the few bills I can pay...
...I really. Fucking. Hate. My. Life.
Respect
Call me old fashioned, but the way I was raised, respect came with two things: reputation or age.
You respect your elders, you respect those of authority or accomplishment.
Anyone close to your age or less is just that -- another person.
Sure, you still extend common courtesy and are nice to people, but respect is another emotion altogether.
re⋅spect
/rɪˈspɛkt/ Show Spelled Pronunciation [ri-spekt]
–noun
3. esteem for or a sense of the worth or excellence of a person, a personal quality or ability, or something considered as a manifestation of a personal quality or ability: I have great respect for her judgment.
5. the condition of being esteemed or honored: to be held in respect.
6. respects, a formal expression or gesture of greeting, esteem, or friendship: Give my respects to your parents.
7. favor or partiality.
I took out the ones that aren't relevant to this post.
Taken from dictionary.reference.com
Respect is a position you hold someone in, almost exhalted or praised.
Respect is something earned.
Know the difference between courtesy and respect.
As Lovell put it, "Why should everyone think your special? Your a magician, who gives a shit?"
You, as an entertainer, have to give the audience a REASON to respect you. On the same token, many people will not speak when being introduced, some will not shake hands, some will not even acknowledge another person's presence. Why? They have no reason yet to respect that person.
That's not something to take offense to, it's something that should make you strive to want to earn that person's respect.
Remember: You shake someone's hand because YOU respect them. Not because they respect you.
You respect your elders, you respect those of authority or accomplishment.
Anyone close to your age or less is just that -- another person.
Sure, you still extend common courtesy and are nice to people, but respect is another emotion altogether.
re⋅spect
/rɪˈspɛkt/ Show Spelled Pronunciation [ri-spekt]
–noun
3. esteem for or a sense of the worth or excellence of a person, a personal quality or ability, or something considered as a manifestation of a personal quality or ability: I have great respect for her judgment.
5. the condition of being esteemed or honored: to be held in respect.
6. respects, a formal expression or gesture of greeting, esteem, or friendship: Give my respects to your parents.
7. favor or partiality.
I took out the ones that aren't relevant to this post.
Taken from dictionary.reference.com
Respect is a position you hold someone in, almost exhalted or praised.
Respect is something earned.
Know the difference between courtesy and respect.
As Lovell put it, "Why should everyone think your special? Your a magician, who gives a shit?"
You, as an entertainer, have to give the audience a REASON to respect you. On the same token, many people will not speak when being introduced, some will not shake hands, some will not even acknowledge another person's presence. Why? They have no reason yet to respect that person.
That's not something to take offense to, it's something that should make you strive to want to earn that person's respect.
Remember: You shake someone's hand because YOU respect them. Not because they respect you.
Bliss
The world as we know it will one day come to an end.
We all leave this realm of existence at one point or another...
what will you leave behind?
I see a lot going on --
and it's time some theory got put into practice.
This month will give rise to the completion of projects that have been put off.
To finality, finesse, and progress.
To making a name for those who need one, and giving competition a run for their money.
I see only one way to make my mark on the world.
Some are subtle, some fight wars, some are political, some are insane.
Me, I'm just ready to take on the masses and show them what I'm made of.
Until next time,
this has been Conjecture and Praxis.
We all leave this realm of existence at one point or another...
what will you leave behind?
I see a lot going on --
and it's time some theory got put into practice.
This month will give rise to the completion of projects that have been put off.
To finality, finesse, and progress.
To making a name for those who need one, and giving competition a run for their money.
I see only one way to make my mark on the world.
Some are subtle, some fight wars, some are political, some are insane.
Me, I'm just ready to take on the masses and show them what I'm made of.
Until next time,
this has been Conjecture and Praxis.
An Open Letter to the BlackLine Magic Staff
FWD: From Aaron Stone. (www.theREALaaronStone.com)
Ladies and Gentlemen,
Aaron here.
Let me preface this by reminding you that I'm but the messenger.
I'm posting this because there is a valid point here, whether some agree with it or not.
There is something to be said of maturity, for certain -- and the sheer lack of it brings us here today.
The following is an e-mail directly from Christopher Lyle, who has just terminated his account.
His reasons are included.
I think this should be read with care, consideration, and sincerity.
This is a bridge that has been burned.
Let it be the last.
Let this be an example to those who need it that their actions have consequences, and that NO ONE may impair the rights laid down by our forefathers in the FIRST AMENDMENT TO THE CONSTITUTION OF THE UNITED STATES OF AMERICA.
We're not the government, guys.
If someone has an opinion, they're entitled to it.
That's the beauty of being human.
"Moderator" privileges on ANY forum are granted for maintenance purposed exclusively. It's a professional title to take pride in, and treat with respect. Moderators exist to politely censor inappropriate content, lookout for malicious behavior, and prevent emotions from getting out of hand. A moderator is an arbiter, taking an impartial and unbiased stance on the subjects which he/she must edit.
Moderators also only exist to HELP the owner of the forums. Shane can't be everywhere at once, he's a busy man. We were given the privilege because he trusts us.
His trust in some of us just cost a very dear price.
It hurt me greatly to read the following, because by involving myself with Blackline, my reputation (as well as all of yours) is on the line. My own patience with immaturity is remarkably thin. I will risk time and effort for nearly anything -- but so help me God I will not risk my career and my reputation for children on a power trip.
Let it be known that we have burned one bridge.
This will not happen again.
WILL. NOT.
You have no right to truncate or modify people's thoughts simply because you have the ability.
Play nice.
~Aaron
Creative Artist
Purveyor of Visual Arts
Brain Ninja
From Christopher Lyle:
I have decided to end my participation with this forum.
When I was invited to join, my thought was, "great...another magic forum." Then when I got in here and began surfing around, I was even less amused...but since my buddy Aaron was part of it, I decided to give it a chance....
In moving forward, it was my hope that I would be able to offer my advice and commentary to help and advise the membership since my experience far out weighs just about everyone (staff included) who is on this forum. I'm always happy to assist new comers to our art so I stuck around and tried to make my little dent...
Over the last 48 hours, my posts have been compromised. They have been edited/deleted and I REFUSE to be censored. Gambit...I don't buy your bullPoop excuse for how you accidentally edited my post. If you're going to lie, then come up with something better.
You cannot have a forum where you want people to express their opinions and when their opinions don't fit your mold, banish that person's 1st amendment rights and censor them to paint a different picture. Both GAMBIT and RYAN have edited my posts and other posts I made mysteriously disappeared so who knows who was behind that! BULLPoop! COMPLETE BULLPoop!
All of you guys are an absolute joke and I want NOTHING to do with Blackline. I have a very strong voice within the Magic Community and I shall warn anyone/everyone to stay far away from here as you're all a clan of immature children (most of whom aren't even old enough to vote) who believe in Censorship rather than Free Speech!
Perhaps when you all grow up, your little corner of the planet will be a success. But with your current ways, you will fail. It's a mathematical certainty....
I have deleted all of my posts and have removed my account from the site. The only footprint I leave behind is this email that no doubt...will also be deleted!
Good Riddance!
Christopher Lyle
Ladies and Gentlemen,
Aaron here.
Let me preface this by reminding you that I'm but the messenger.
I'm posting this because there is a valid point here, whether some agree with it or not.
There is something to be said of maturity, for certain -- and the sheer lack of it brings us here today.
The following is an e-mail directly from Christopher Lyle, who has just terminated his account.
His reasons are included.
I think this should be read with care, consideration, and sincerity.
This is a bridge that has been burned.
Let it be the last.
Let this be an example to those who need it that their actions have consequences, and that NO ONE may impair the rights laid down by our forefathers in the FIRST AMENDMENT TO THE CONSTITUTION OF THE UNITED STATES OF AMERICA.
We're not the government, guys.
If someone has an opinion, they're entitled to it.
That's the beauty of being human.
"Moderator" privileges on ANY forum are granted for maintenance purposed exclusively. It's a professional title to take pride in, and treat with respect. Moderators exist to politely censor inappropriate content, lookout for malicious behavior, and prevent emotions from getting out of hand. A moderator is an arbiter, taking an impartial and unbiased stance on the subjects which he/she must edit.
Moderators also only exist to HELP the owner of the forums. Shane can't be everywhere at once, he's a busy man. We were given the privilege because he trusts us.
His trust in some of us just cost a very dear price.
It hurt me greatly to read the following, because by involving myself with Blackline, my reputation (as well as all of yours) is on the line. My own patience with immaturity is remarkably thin. I will risk time and effort for nearly anything -- but so help me God I will not risk my career and my reputation for children on a power trip.
Let it be known that we have burned one bridge.
This will not happen again.
WILL. NOT.
You have no right to truncate or modify people's thoughts simply because you have the ability.
Play nice.
~Aaron
Creative Artist
Purveyor of Visual Arts
Brain Ninja
From Christopher Lyle:
I have decided to end my participation with this forum.
When I was invited to join, my thought was, "great...another magic forum." Then when I got in here and began surfing around, I was even less amused...but since my buddy Aaron was part of it, I decided to give it a chance....
In moving forward, it was my hope that I would be able to offer my advice and commentary to help and advise the membership since my experience far out weighs just about everyone (staff included) who is on this forum. I'm always happy to assist new comers to our art so I stuck around and tried to make my little dent...
Over the last 48 hours, my posts have been compromised. They have been edited/deleted and I REFUSE to be censored. Gambit...I don't buy your bullPoop excuse for how you accidentally edited my post. If you're going to lie, then come up with something better.
You cannot have a forum where you want people to express their opinions and when their opinions don't fit your mold, banish that person's 1st amendment rights and censor them to paint a different picture. Both GAMBIT and RYAN have edited my posts and other posts I made mysteriously disappeared so who knows who was behind that! BULLPoop! COMPLETE BULLPoop!
All of you guys are an absolute joke and I want NOTHING to do with Blackline. I have a very strong voice within the Magic Community and I shall warn anyone/everyone to stay far away from here as you're all a clan of immature children (most of whom aren't even old enough to vote) who believe in Censorship rather than Free Speech!
Perhaps when you all grow up, your little corner of the planet will be a success. But with your current ways, you will fail. It's a mathematical certainty....
I have deleted all of my posts and have removed my account from the site. The only footprint I leave behind is this email that no doubt...will also be deleted!
Good Riddance!
Christopher Lyle
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