I sometimes feel really creative, other times I feel incredibly inadequate.
I know what quality IS, but cannot achieve it myself.
So, then, should I take risks and make the best of new opportunities, or should I play it safe and possibly miss out on an abundant career?
I know how good my show is, I know what I can comfortably charge, but I still feel guilty about it. I need the money so bad I can't really lower my rate, but I love performing so much and I know how hard my show is to do, and I get pissed off at myself for getting the kind of money that I do.
Tonight I had a show at a local theatre. Not a great turn-out, but my act went over very well.
I feel like I'm getting good too soon, but at the same time progressing in my career far too late...
Ah, fuck it. I'm actually just writing right now because I hate my life and wanted to kill some time.
My brain is completely devoid of intelligent thought, and I can't seem to find anything pleasing beyond the sound of the fizzles inside my Dr. Pepper can.
.: sigh :.
