I just had an epiphany.
Have you, as a male, ever joined a "dating site" and wondered why it didn't work!?
Well, here's the secret. Misleading advertising. Yeah, wake up, open your eyes, and read:
Our site has over 1 Million Members!
It all makes sense now.
The Future
I have spent more time in the hospital lately than I have in my entire life thusfar combined.
I've missed weeks of work, and dealt with a lot of unpleasant shit.
But, I've also accomplished more than I have in almost a year now.
Why? Because I wasn't slaving away at a 9-5 for at least a week straight.
I got stuff done.
I built props.
I played games.
I lived.
And it's here I draw a conclusion -- there is no substitute for living a dream.
The sooner I can stop living in a fantasy world (the shop), the better.
I've missed weeks of work, and dealt with a lot of unpleasant shit.
But, I've also accomplished more than I have in almost a year now.
Why? Because I wasn't slaving away at a 9-5 for at least a week straight.
I got stuff done.
I built props.
I played games.
I lived.
And it's here I draw a conclusion -- there is no substitute for living a dream.
The sooner I can stop living in a fantasy world (the shop), the better.
Wish
I wish for a day where there is much less drama.
I'm aware that LIFE is DRAMA, and so there will always be small amounts of it...
but mostly, I just wish for a serious decrease in the amount I'm subjected to.
This being my only place to really vent about it without consequence, I try to keep my venting to a minimum.
I hate people who are two-faced.
I hate people who are manipulative of others for their own gain, to the detriment of others.
I hate liars.
I hate hypocrites.
I despise drama and those who perpetuate it.
I hate people who get the world handed to them from day one and never have to work for anything they have -- knowing they take pride in that and laugh at people like me who work their asses off for decent shelter and a few nice things.
I hate tiny jewish girls named Malka.
And, the icing on the cake, I hate people who cant EVER be original with ANYTHING they do.
O.O
OMFG.
I'm filled with hate right now.
And hot pockets.
Hateful hotpockets.
Those damn microwavable sin cells.
I'm aware that LIFE is DRAMA, and so there will always be small amounts of it...
but mostly, I just wish for a serious decrease in the amount I'm subjected to.
This being my only place to really vent about it without consequence, I try to keep my venting to a minimum.
I hate people who are two-faced.
I hate people who are manipulative of others for their own gain, to the detriment of others.
I hate liars.
I hate hypocrites.
I despise drama and those who perpetuate it.
I hate people who get the world handed to them from day one and never have to work for anything they have -- knowing they take pride in that and laugh at people like me who work their asses off for decent shelter and a few nice things.
I hate tiny jewish girls named Malka.
And, the icing on the cake, I hate people who cant EVER be original with ANYTHING they do.
O.O
OMFG.
I'm filled with hate right now.
And hot pockets.
Hateful hotpockets.
Those damn microwavable sin cells.
Crumbling
I'm really not sick that often.
I went to the hospital last week for medication for an infection.
The prescriptions were too costly, so I put them off, and find myself in a painful predicament.
I went back to the hospital as a last resort chance to find some kind of relief for this pain, only to be told there was nothing more they could do until the infection cleared.
Duh.
The pharmacy close right before I got there.
I spent 5 minutes crying when I saw my gas gauge light turn on.
I had to take out my contacts because my eyes hurt.
I'm coughing up bits of blood.
I can't swallow my own spit, much less anything else.
I hurt, I'm coughing, and drowning in problems.
I hear help is coming, but no idea how soon -- if at all.
The belts on my car need to be replaced, because 2 of them are cracked and not going to make it much farther. The engine needs a tune-up. It needs the fluids flushed and replaced. I've got nearly bald tires and a hole in my exhaust pipe. I put about 6k miles on my car each month. I'm 4k miles overdue for an oil change, but can't do ANY of that because of rent, cell phone, internet, electricity, food, and gas itself.
I spend all my freetime working just to have the money for the few bills I can pay...
...I really. Fucking. Hate. My. Life.
I went to the hospital last week for medication for an infection.
The prescriptions were too costly, so I put them off, and find myself in a painful predicament.
I went back to the hospital as a last resort chance to find some kind of relief for this pain, only to be told there was nothing more they could do until the infection cleared.
Duh.
The pharmacy close right before I got there.
I spent 5 minutes crying when I saw my gas gauge light turn on.
I had to take out my contacts because my eyes hurt.
I'm coughing up bits of blood.
I can't swallow my own spit, much less anything else.
I hurt, I'm coughing, and drowning in problems.
I hear help is coming, but no idea how soon -- if at all.
The belts on my car need to be replaced, because 2 of them are cracked and not going to make it much farther. The engine needs a tune-up. It needs the fluids flushed and replaced. I've got nearly bald tires and a hole in my exhaust pipe. I put about 6k miles on my car each month. I'm 4k miles overdue for an oil change, but can't do ANY of that because of rent, cell phone, internet, electricity, food, and gas itself.
I spend all my freetime working just to have the money for the few bills I can pay...
...I really. Fucking. Hate. My. Life.
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