Sometimes the only way to cope is to force yourself to let go. And not just loosen your grasp, but to let go and prevent yourself from even being able to regain what you had.
I had to remove Suzo from every profile I have -- I was wasting too much time obsessing over little things that supposedly meant nothing.
I got tired of the bullshit, the "I lovED you too,"'s, and the ignoring.
And finally, after all the petty drama was done and we were finally having an all out war over the phone, she confessed, "I still love you."
I hate that. I spent over a month doing everything I could to show her I had changed -- and she would have rather ignored me completely instead of giving me the chance to show her. And SHE'S the one who asked me to change.
Well, good for me, I changed.
I'm making good money now, I'm happy, and don't have any inclination to look back. There were a few good times with her, but honestly I can't believe she turned out to be so immature, especially when all I ever did was try to get her up off her ass and be productive so she could live the life she claimed to want to have.
I wish her the same success and happiness I'm feeling now.
And I feel sorry for any poor sap who falls for her before she grows up...
