I don't like it when people keep things from me.
Even if it's supposedly small, or insignificant.

I know the matter at hand had to do with me, hence the only reason for my concern.

I'm irritated with a lot of things right now... my agent, people who owe me money but won't pay up, lack of sex, mistress in a mood, and rude emails from clients who I turned down because I'm booked elsewhere and can't be in two places at once.

I really want to just destroy something right now.  Like in the scene from Office Space.
I want to take a Louisville Slugger to some computer equipment.

And I want to find a clean girl, eat her out, and fuck the shit out of her.
I don't really care who, right now, providing she's disease free.  I'm frustrated and need a release.
I'm THAT pissed off, lol.

Some things...

I found a box today... I had to quickly close it and label it "seven."

A few seconds later I opened it up again and proceeded to bawl like a baby.  For an hour, at least.
I'm baffled by how something like that can still hurt so bad.  I had no control over the situation, nor any say in the decisions and actions of those involved.  Still, I can't help but look at these printouts and trinkets and completely lose my mind all over again.

They were mine, too.
And while I am thankful, I am also not the best at coping with the facts.

I just wanted stability in my life.  2½ years later, I think I finally have it...
but getting here took far too long.  I hope that there is still some good guy left in me for someone who deserves it.

Time to crank up some music and try my damn hardest to clear my mind.

Good thing goin'

I've got a good thing goin'.
And I don't wanna fuck it up.

That's a pretty damn good reason to be successful, I think.

Magic

Magic is as much a business as banking, or the sale of wholesale lumber.  It has to be dealt with professionally and ethically, as well as actively.

Do you want to perform?  Get off your ass and get the venue's.
Do you want money for it?  Promote it out of your own pocket.
Do you want to be famous?  Be good at it once you get the crowd.

I have been working behind the scenes for months on a new gig... and today I finally landed it.
I signed a contract that any magician, much less one my age, would die for, figuratively speaking.

I'll be on the road soon, with my own show, all over the country again.

AND I CAN'T FUCKING WAIT!!! :D